Sunday, August 30, 2015

I have had moments today where I'm at a loss for direction. The reality that summer ends today, school begins tomorrow, fall is in the air, and soon I can have my own rhythms and patterns again is strange, almost uncomfortable.
When you parent special needs kids, the amount of energy you expend over the course of a summer, with a large majority of it having nothing to do with your personal interests or well being, can turn you into an exhausted heap. The last 4 days or so I've also been pretty sick and sleepless. To imagine long stretches of uninterrupted sleep is just wild.
I love my family, don't ever misunderstand that. But there is something to be said, though, for finding balance from within... something that is uniquely mine, alone.
So I hope it wraps back around to a familiar feeling again... a feeling that isn't tied up in guilt for wanting time for myself. I may be a mother, but I am also a person. And that person needs a serious break.
Happy Back-To-School to all the exhausted special needs parents everywhere, and God bless the special needs teachers!